~Anne Lamott — Shitty First Drafts ~
I know some very great writers, writers you love who write beautifully and have made a great deal of money, and not one of them sits down routinely feeling wildly enthusiastic and confident. Not one of them writes elegant first drafts. All right, one of them does, but we do not like her very much. We do not think that she has a rich inner life or that God likes her or can even stand her. (Although when I mentioned this to my priest friend Tom, he said you can safely assume you’ve created God in your own image when it turns out that God hates all the same people you do.)
Now, Muriel Spark is said to have felt that she was taking dictation from God every morning — sitting there, one supposes, plugged into a Dictaphone, typing away, humming. But this is a very hostile and aggressive position. One might hope for bad things to rain down on a person like this.
Read the rest of her thoughts on Shitty First Drafts here.
“Eventually I’d go back and sit down at my desk, and sigh for the next ten minutes.”
This is what I do, exactly this. ALL OF THE SITTING AT MY DESK AND SIGHING.
Go and read all of this, it’s fantastic. I feel a million times better for having read it and will now carry on happily with my shitty first draft.